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02-18-2005, 06:03 AM
So this forum has recently changed. There have been some new arrivals, including myself. Maybe a good way to rekindle things is to re-introduce ourselves.
I'll start.

I'm an open book.
I'm not sure I'll ever check this site again.
I'm perpetually suicidal...It's not an oxymoron.
And I have an uncommon quality to experience life to a degree and with a satisfaction that I think few will ever know.
It's winter and it's been a long time since that side of me came around.

I have little confidence that this thread will continue.

Cozmo D
02-18-2005, 09:36 AM
I'm Coz.
I'm black.
I'm 45.
I'm the only child of an unwed mother who has only met his father once.
I'm considered by many to be an Old School Electro and Hip-Hop pioneer.
I'm considered by many to be a condescending old pervert who's too full of himself.
I'm an eternal optomist as well as an unapologetic realist, and just crazy enough to believe that those are NOT contradictory terms.
I am a follower of Christ and am intimate with God, to the point that I regularly dismiss the Bible and all religion.
I've been with the same woman faithfully for nearly 26 years, and I'm a BOOTAY hound.
I've got a 21 year old son and a 15 year old son, and I still hold memories of being in the womb.
My family is my life, my music is my life, my only fear of my next life is losing this one.
I probably know less about the music of Pm Dawn than anyone else here.
I co-produced the first PM Dawn record.

02-18-2005, 02:44 PM
I am 28
I am NOT black! I am "Walnut Tan". ;)
I am in medical school and should be finishing up around April 1st
I am a single parent. NO that doesn't mean I have a "Baby Mama" and I keep my kid on weekends. I have SOLE legal custody of my son.
I am also confused :confused: alot.
I have a knack for getting into strange violent situations. (NOT on purpose.)
I am a pervert and a bootay hound.
I used to make porn.
I run for president every 4 years. (I've gotten 16 votes! only a few million to go....)
I will someday soon be a pilot and fly a FLIGHT FOR LIFE Helicopter. (Reason for medical school.)
I am considered by the people at my school to be the pioneer of "Walking my ass off to get to school."
I love the world.
I can't really remember anything else about myself right now as I haven't been to sleep since wednesday afternoon. (School and work_
Oh yeah, I am a student instructor at my school and I won "The most outstanding student of the year" award.
I........... am going home to sleep.

02-18-2005, 03:22 PM
i am syxx

my real name is carl

i grew up and athiest(now bordering on spirtualist) interracial chubby chasing homosexual...

i am fairly reclusive (not big on travel or long car trips)...very much a homebody with a lot of hobbies...

1.video games(playing)
2.music (listening)
3.movies (watching)
4.pro wrestling(watching)
5.poetry (reading and writing)
6. various forms of collecting....

i was never a good school student ..i took myself way to seriously had no social skills whatsoever when i was much younger... and tried to kill myself on numerous occasions before i was 13....

then when i turned 16 everything somehow seemed and felt better and ive had no overmelodramatic(and at times seemingly self induced) episodes since....

had one friend in highschool....i still speak and hang out with him occassionally....(we have only one or two things in common but we got through a lot together)...

work at a job where im considered one of the be all end all go to guys (does wonder for my ego)..i also think ive grown as a worker too!....

i work the otc/1hourphoto/digital departments.in a walgreens in teaneck nj...

currently my life is going fairly well....once you realize a lot of worse things happen in the world like starving thirdworld countries religious wars and people getting raped mutilated and murdered just for the hell of it you seem to realize your in a much better position than you ever thought you were in in the first place and the fiddle solos get a hell ot a lot shorter....

on and the guy who murdered my friend died of diabetes complications and the baby they had is being raised by her (said deceased)mother.....

i am also not done with this post as this is a work in progress....i will purge more later......

02-18-2005, 05:45 PM
I'm Harmeister, but you can call me just Harm
I'm very white with red hair
I'm 29 for a few months still
I'm the oldest of three children from my mom and five from my dad (three marriages for him, only one marriage for my mom)
I'm simply a software engineer currently working on the ColdFusion team at Macromedia
I've been happily married for almost eight years now and have three wonderful children.

02-18-2005, 06:32 PM
Im Tim ,
23 , from australia, went to england in 2002, returned 2004 september
still trying to make sure i have no remnants of my first relationship.. when i went to england and got trapped there for a while by an abusive GF.. took my money,passports etc and had me locked in a room when i wasnt at work.
I work with intellectually disabled people in their homes but would like to do music on the side and thus am saving my pennys for some equipment
Im also a 6ft white guy trying to get in good shape to build up my confidence
this is one of the few sites i regularly check and i love the people here
got one or two high school friends around but they arent on the same wavelength as me at all...

life is going pretty well.. got a fresh start here in oz.. just need to get more hours at work so im getting decent $$$ then things will all be in order !!
i was brought up catholic.. which i remain but with a belief that life is altered around what metaphysical experiences an individual needs to progress.. for some this is an athiestic existence, some may see ghosts, attain the buddhist form of enlightenment , see an angel, be murdered !! it just depends!!

02-18-2005, 07:46 PM
you all realize that this is in Leisure World right?
*looks around and gives time for the right thing to be done while sporting an evil grin*

Cozmo D
02-18-2005, 08:03 PM
It belongs here Chief, do your dirt. :D

02-18-2005, 08:27 PM
I guess it's my turn...

I am 24 and my name is Scott.
I am a middle child and that should explain it, or some of it at least.
I am hard on myself and hopelessly hard on other people(if they are stupid) and I am a pessimistic realist, although I just call myself a realist. (yes Coz, the opposite is contradictory... just playin', I really like hearing those two things together - even though I don't see things that way)
I was always good in sports - baseball, basketball, etc, whoopty-doo... now I am lazy and I play pool.
I don't have a job and I plan on never having one, don't ask me how.
I am in school, 7th year, wasting time, procrastinating.
I am really into myself, can't you tell?
I was a horrible student in gradeschool, then I had good grades in 7th and 8th grade. Then I had bad grades in HS, then I had nearly perfect grades in college. That is the reason that I refuse to go to grad school, I am not letting the pattern win out.
I am a manic-depressant that hates head doctors and taking crazy pills, so I don't anymore.
I need a girl to ground me, but something tells me I would screw it up.
Alright, I am a pessimistic realist, so sue me.
I am horrible meeting people and overall I have bad people skills, I have bad anxiety around people too. But once I get to know someone things go much more smoothly.

I also have to agree with aero when he said:

"I'm perpetually suicidal...It's not an oxymoron.
And I have an uncommon quality to experience life to a degree and with a satisfaction that I think few will ever know."

I feel like that too, sometimes.

I love these threads, in some sense it is like the difference between a documentary and a hollywood movie, these being the documentaries of the analogy. I can't get enough of documentaries and hollywood movies more often than not bore me intellectually.

That is all.

02-18-2005, 11:27 PM
ok kool...my name is Be
aside from being my name ..it is also my occupation
i've been 27 for 8 years now
i am black..sometimes....i guess...my dad was dominican...and my grandmom on my mom's side was one thousand % wahshitah indian....grand dad was black...but instead of splainin nall that to people i just use my skin color...i simply say i'm black... sometimes ...i guess
i am the oldest of 6 boys...1 of which is my father's best friend's son...and 2 of my brothers are also simultaniously my cousin.....thru my entire teenage experience i had the distinct feeling that my mom wanted to and in all probabillity has had sex with a good number of my friends....yes my mother was a whore but i've since come to tearms with that because so am i....she is affectionately nicknamed mary magdalene

the whole experience made me disstrust women....inparticularly it made me loathe black women
i've only been friends with 2 black women my whole life...neither of which are my mom
A) my friend tisha who i've known since i was 12...connection...she was also extreemly overweight and concidered herself loathsome...and couldn't possibly have fucked my mom
B)my friend evette...coz's wife because she's so inately sweet and completly dissarming that she trancends cataglory...and simpy goes into my Coz file..if i was blind i probably wouldn't have even noticed her ethnicity

when i was 7..my baby brother was murdered by a psychotic border my mom took in...from that day on when i hear "GOD BLESS THE CHILD" or Billie noliday i cry uncontrolably...i was the oldest and i felt responsible...i still do to some conciderable degree....i had to talk my mother out of killing herself so to this day when shit is going bad with her...she tells me that she's only alive because i begged her to be here...and somehow that makes her my resposibility the psychotic part is that i believe her 75% of the time while simutaneously knowing it's bullshit...

For all those that know the track untitled....yes ...it is the same woman that used to say to me....i hate you so much...you're nothing to me...i wish you never were...her exact and favorite quote was the original title to untitled
"You aren't worth the fuck it took to make you

5 years ago i wouldn't have even been able toexplain any of this or even accept any of it scientificly if i hadn't spent a fortune on therapy

oh yeah...i'm Bi-polar...and i've been in a deep DEEP low swing for about 4 years now so my deppression prevents me from knowing if i'm optimistic or pessimistic....

i simply ....do not know

THE POWER OF NOW......ROCK ROCK ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
one of these days...i'll be right with all of this

02-19-2005, 12:14 AM
I am Louis (Sean is my first name)...
I am 37, still single, Black and proud
I was raised in a single parent household that included a grandmother who is still very fiesty
I graduated from high school (vice president of my class) and college with honors
I have an MBA that sits in my underwear drawer(and that's the best use of it)
I recently met my father for the first time ever and it still has me in a daze
I have many many hobbies and play several sports, hoops more than any other
I love the outdoor stuff: camping, whitewater rafting, hiking (only a little)
I have many many relatives most of which don't care for me
I never take myself seriously
I gamble WAAAYYYYY too much
I've read everything from my 3 favorite authors: Harris, Coupland, & McMillan
I live to hang out with my younger cousins. without them life would be boring as hell
And nothing ever makes sense to me the first time I hear it because I'm very BAD at paying attention

02-19-2005, 12:43 AM
You've given me insight into personalities and other live's that I really, really needed. Perhaps ya'll knew that and that is why you were so kind to respond so whole heartedly...Thank you.
Since everyone was so forthcoming, I'll add a bit more to my description.

First, I'll list things I share with the things just put forth. I believe Jesus is a true saviour, I believe there is some kind of metaphysical sea which we must swim. I don't have a job. I am an excellent worker. I remember being in the hospital just after birth and in one of those plastic containers... I remember, warmth and peace. Sterile atmosphere but the clean and soft blanket. I felt entirely alone but it was as if I knew nothing else so I was just glowing... I still wonder if this was some kind of grace. life force or drugs that they injected into my mother during childbirth flooding me.

More practically...
I realized I was gay when I was 5... I believe it can stem from early development naturally or from birth itself. I came out when I was 19.
I'm 31 years old.
I'm white.... Swiss/Sweedish/Polish/German/Irish/English.
I studied advertising after highschool, never worked in the field. I ditched A successful cooperate career to work outdoors operating the best rollercoaster ever built. MillenniumForce (Beautiful, Blue, Fast-93MPH and touching the clouds at 31 stories tall) It was the greatest part of my life so far. wait a minute I can't stop... (80degree drop situated on the shore over looking Lake erie, very back and left seat is the best. If you let go relax completely while watching the sky or a light from a boat in the distance during the complete freefall. It's emotionally, physically and spiritually cleansing.) Really.

I have this thing about me that wants to satisfy everyone and it just wont die.
I drive. I type. I have access to my dream life. The waking world seems to pull from me and I often feel decieved or victimized.
I wake every morning with a VERY strong death wish.
I've allways been more existentially, including spiritually, centered... more than physical or sexually oriented.
I don't have much in the way of the practical I guess.
I'm the youngest, I have two older brothers.
I could list a long ugly tale of misfortune but I kinda already did that elswhere on this site.

I'm really glad to meet all of you.

02-19-2005, 01:08 AM
YES IT IS! (Everything you said about MF...although the coaster geeks keep trying to give the number one coaster steel coaster crown to Superman: Ride of Steel...bastards!)

Cozmo D
02-19-2005, 01:26 AM
I felt entirely alone but it was as if I knew nothing else so I was just glowing...
YES!!! That is the closest description that I have ever heard from anyone. the best way to describe what I remember is of being ONE, and that One was ALL! It was the most comfortable and secure feeling of my life and I spent most of my childhood trying to get that feeling back when I went to sleep. I believe that is why I can still remember it, and why to this day absolute Heaven to me is a totally quiet, totally dark room to sleep in. :)

02-19-2005, 01:58 AM
Ahhh, someone here know's MF can be an acronym for somthing else. Superman:Ride of steel, New England right? That coaster is junk. I only have had one ride on it but I don't care.
It's sub par at best.

Cozymandias: Yep, thats it... I just never thought of it that way. No ego yet getting in the way of the central source. it's almost uncomprehensible that we could be so at one with everything yet remain entirely ourselves all at once and all so effortlesslly.

I've read that personality is essentially the compromise of the ego against the demands of the herd. Our initial mode's of survival so many of us adopt and accept really are futile in the end aren't they...Our culture accepts this as the way of the world but I'm not sure it has to be this way. In the end though I think the dying realise this futility and I bet that accounts for alot of the peace we can see in the dying. Anyway,

02-19-2005, 03:07 AM
oh yeah...i left out 1 lil tee hee....my junior high school class voted me "Least likely to be on MTV...i believe that was part of my motivation...i guess i was a lil napoleon dynamite-ish

02-19-2005, 04:43 AM
In the end though I think the dying realise this futility and I bet that accounts for alot of the peace we can see in the dying.

what if the end was in the middle(although not necesarily related to a near death experience)? Is it the peace we are after to begin with? If so then can we screw it up if we get it too early?

Like I said, I love these threads......

02-19-2005, 06:03 AM
its amazing how many people wanna kill themselves around here

02-19-2005, 02:41 PM
hey it was all the rage in the nineties popularized by such chic bands as nirvana ....te hehe

02-19-2005, 03:36 PM
I might as well join in.

I am PsychoMan. I gave myself that name in grade 9 after my first real skateboard, the "Vision Psycho Stick".
I don't post much, but I lurk often.
I am about as white as they come. Scandinavian/European background.
I have been listening to PM Dawn ever since I accidentally listened to my sister's copy of The Utopian Experience on cassette when it came out.
I have two parents, four sisters, two nieces and two nephews.
I have lived in Ontario, Canada my whole life.
I am a devout atheist. I belive in evolution. I feel at peace with the universe.
I have two cars: A 1991 Russian Lada Signet, and a 2004 Toyota Prius Hybrid.
I am straight. I am 14 months into my first relationship, and I am happy. I met my girfriend on LavaLife.
Nothing bad has ever happened to me. My childhood was about as good as it gets.
I am 28 now.
I have an Honours degree in Pure Mathematics and Computer Science.
I am a software developer for a successful broadcast graphics software company. I wrote their core 2D graphics rendering engine.
I play the clarinet... though not very well.

My favourite band is PM Dawn. My PM Dawn CD collection is only matched in size by my "Weird Al" Yankovic CD collection. I don't know what that says about me.

02-19-2005, 06:13 PM
My name is Renee.
I'm 36.
I'm black.
I have a B.A. from the Unviersity of Washington. It's either in my filing cabinet or a photo album in storage.
I don't visit this forum very often -- when I get the urge for forum visiting, it's usually pretty quiet here.
I've lived exclusively in Seattle, except for a technicality and that month in SE India.
Even though I have five half-siblings, I was raised as an only-child.
My dad died in 1989 at age 72. My other is pushing 80 now. I may have met my paternal grandfather once, but I can't remember.
I've been told that I write very well. In Spring of 2004 I won a contest based on my writing and went to England for entirely too short an amount of time.
After two years of completely failing to, I submitted my application for The Academy of Alternative Journalism (http://www.medill.northwestern.edu/medill/admissions/prospective_students/academy_for_alternative_journalism.html) in Chicago. Even if I don't get in this year, at least I'll have tried.
For those who follow such things: Libra sun, Cancer moon, Scorpio rising.
Ron Perlman, Forest Whitacker and Vin Diesel would have to eat a lot of crackers to get thrown out of my bed.
The first time I seriously contemplated suicide was in college -- I was an outcast who was best friends with a highly depressed kid and he kinda rubbed off on me. I knew where my dad's gun was, knew I was a complete disappointment to my parents (still do) and couldn't picture a future worth living through. A sappy song on the radio snapped me out of it.
I've been voluntarily sterile since Summer of 1998. I have no children and have never been pregnant.
The last time I seriously considered suicide was the Spring of 1998, during my first pregnancy scare. I was getting divorced and had never liked children. Despite the fact that my situtation was completely understandable (I think that being pregnant before the divorce papers go in isn't looked down upon by anyone I'd be willing to talk to), I was so ashamed and mortified that I considered everything from poison to natural abortificants to keeping the baby just so I'd have someone around who loved me. It took about two more weeks and two more tests to confirm that it had been a false positive.
I have a tattoo of Anubis on my upper right arm.
I think I first heard PM Dawn in the Summer of '93, when Reality Used to be a Friend of Mine came on the local alternative radio station. I've never been to a PM Dawn concert and don't know if they've ever made it to Seattle.
I just realized that the last time I dated someone of my own race was before I hit puberty.
My last Improv 101 class is this coming Tuesday.
The last book I read was Too Good to Leave, Too Bad to Stay by Mira Kirshenbaum.
I'm currently reading Night Watch by Terry Prachett.
I want to learn to crochet so that I can repair my favorite sweater.
I came out as bi and polyamorous during my very brief marriage.
I'm an introvert, but socialize to keep from going completely peculiar.
Songs that make my cry include The Life by Wendy and Lisa, That's Me by Tara MacLean and Brenda Stubbert by Ashley MacIssac. They tend to involve life either being cut short or not used fully.
I also tend to cry during movies or books about deposed or doomed Chinese imperialists: Dragon Lady by Sterling Redgrave, Kundun and The Last Emperor.
Orange was my favorite color when I was growing up: it's the color all the really good sunrises and sunsets, and no one else liked it so there was always plenty of cool construction paper around.

02-19-2005, 06:25 PM
Am I too late? No? Great.

I'm Stan.
I just recently just turned 32.
I'm single straight black male who has never been in love
Still live with parents
I am the youngest of 4 children (2 brothers and 1 sister)
I have 1 niece (20 going on 35), 1 nephew (10 going on 28),and a great-nephew (month 1/2).
I have a high school diploma, and an associates degree in journalism.
I've been listening to PM Dawn since 1991
I also listen to Seal, The Dave Matthews Band, Tracy Chapman, Billie Meyers, Gabrielle, Prince (mostly his earlier sessions), Tricky, and Vast to name a few.
I am sometime awkward, absent-minded, and often forget things which annoys the hell out of my best friend (lol)
I gave my life to Christ a second time 2 years ago and there's not a day that I don't regret it.
I love to draw, write, read comics, sci-fi and fantasy books, play video games (although my time on that has been rare as of late), watch wrestling (WWE and TNA) and cartoons (too many to name here and now), not to crazy about reality based shows though there are a few (surreal life, cheaters,) that make me laugh.
Around my friends, I'm like the life of the party, but if I don't know you I'm as shy as a 3 year old.
And if you haven't heard this yet I have 15 different personalities which I will get into another time so to answer your question whether or not I laid pipe with Halle Berry? If you ask me, the answer is no. The Rhythmchylde is 11 and I'm going to leave that one alone. Madame Maiden and Sista Something don't swing like that, Boomski Love would say "hell yeah" but she'll deny it. The others I can't speak for, so I guess you'll never know.

Seriously, one last thing I forgot to mention is that I have a hard time opening up to strangers and speaking out in front of a crowd with out trembling like a silly woman in a bad horror flick, but I can talk one on one when I feel comfortable enough to trust them which is not easy.
Well that's all I have for now. Anything else comes up, I be sure to let you know.

Cozmo D
02-19-2005, 07:34 PM
Hmmm...half siblings, I always forget that part.

Though I was raised as and have always considered myself an only child, I met my half-sister when I was 16. Her and her mother were trying to track down our father and found me instead. She finally tracked him down at his funeral about 10 years ago, it was the only time that she had ever laid eyes on him.

Though she is the only half-sibling I have yet to meet, I have since found out that I probably have well over 35 of them, the oldest is a 50 something year old brother, the youngest a 15 year old sister. Most of us have never met the rest of us, and are mostly unaware of each other.

Oh, and my oldest brother was the original bass player for the 70s funk group Mandrill, and was married for a time to the girl's dean of my high school...while I went there, and we've STILL never met.

02-20-2005, 03:26 AM
I love all you guys. To a different degree for sure, but everyone here means something to me, however small or large. This post should continue forever, we should all update ourselves as time adds to us. We should all keep up, as a unique collection of people, sentient beings as the Dalai Lama would refer, and I find us all amazing!

We, which to me can clearly be seen, have compassion for other people and each other. And that is all that matters, and I know the dalai lama would back me up on that... Now who is going to back me up on this post?

02-20-2005, 03:45 AM
I'll back you up. I know I change. I'm still taking in all the wonerful, diverse and open hearts that I now know DO exist.
Who else is "lurking" out there. I think it's safe now... you can come out.
I've already changed sum now that I heard my own voice and people responded to it. Very assuring... and just nice.

02-21-2005, 05:31 PM
My name is Tonya
I'm 29 years old and a Leo like most of the members here.

I'm the oldest of 3 (2 younger brothers) and raised by my mother. I don't have any children but I'd like to one day.

I have a bachelors and a masters degree from VA Tech
I was an English Professor at the age of 24

I'm in law school now (I hate studying Constitutional Law and I have a theory law professors are forged in the 9th circle of hell)

I used to model

I love watching cartoons

I probably would live off of cheeseburgers and fries if I could keep my dress size.

I'm nearly 3 years into the love of my life (a very tall poet who won my heart by making up a poem about me on the spot at an open mic)

I'm a Christian and follower of the teachings of Jesus Christ
I'm nice and honest to a fault (could not tell a believable lie if my life depended on it, and believe me I've tried)

My faith is a little shaky but I'm still waiting for the meek to inherit
I have a naive belief in the innate goodness in all men/women and sincerely take it to heart when I am continuously confronted with the exact opposite.

My friends say I'm the nicest person in the world until I pull out my soapbox and leave a trail of bodies in my wake (hoping this will help me in the courtroom)

School and work don't permit me to post here as often as I'd like, but I do enjoying my time here; Ask Coz, the quickest way to get me going about 8 pages into a post is to say "All women (or men) are_______ {fill in the blank with your choice of stereotype}

02-21-2005, 06:54 PM
Hmm.. Well guess i'll come on in with it..

Im sdldawn.. often called TheXodus
My name is Stephen
Im from Mississippi
I am a male
Im White (but olive complexion.. lebonese:))
I love music
Been round here since the early days... one of the originals of this mofo
Was here when it was mp3land.. gettin the goodies like cocain cookies
Im a pmdawn fan (obviously) little thirsty, but not dehydrated.. so take your time be.
I love women
I play piano.. by ear.. just about anything
Play a tad bit of bass
I'm tryin my best to get my doctorial degree in Audiology..
LOVE Prince
other people I dig is Ben folds, Beck, Radiohead, J Buckley, Paul McCartney, Beatles, Lennon, Mum, spoon, ani Difranco, tori A, Josh Rouse, George M, Jon Brion..this list is in the hundreds.. Im a definant music lover.
I currently Dig the movie Napoleon Dynamite
I love Vanilla Sky, Eternal Sunshine.. ect..
I do photography (black and white, color, ect) of Jackson MS and had a blast doing it as my hobby, also pickin up a few spare bucks on the way.
Love coffee, Medium Roast..
Not affiliated with any base religions, but believe in God and spirituality. Grew up Catholic. I learned from all the major religions.. Its important to me.
I love life
Have solara
I sometimes disapoint some people, but thats life isnt it.
I try my best at whatever I do.. that matters to me..
I'm not gonna go into my family and ect.. i'll stick to that material based stuff.. im not gonna marry any of yall so..

Oh yeah, I Dig Elmo

Cozmo D
02-21-2005, 08:14 PM
Ask Coz, the quickest way to get me going about 8 pages into a post is to say "All women (or men) are_______ {fill in the blank with your choice of stereotype}
Typical female response! :p :D

02-22-2005, 12:34 AM
Typical female response! :p :D

oh man dont say that cause it has the same effect on me!! ohh and i just realised that your reply has exactly the property foxy was referring to !!!

Cozmo D
02-22-2005, 01:38 AM

02-22-2005, 01:48 AM
Play a tad bit of bass

Hey I actually took some bass lessons from the bass player at my church for a few months, but had to stop because of law school. Unfortunately all I got up to was learning scales and a barely passable rendition of Hendrix's "Fire" oh and a little bit of "Pick Up the Pieces" by Average White Band.

02-22-2005, 03:52 AM
I can just pick out one liners to be honest.. like Seven Nation Army type base line...

I dont own a bass so I cant practice

02-22-2005, 04:11 AM
sdldawn, We share very similar tastes in music... for whatever thats worth. Beck's latest stuff is pretty much unprecidented isn't it.. Bitrate variations in B-flat blew me away. It sounded like Nintendo on psychodelics but yet it has palpable soul. You liked Vanilla Sky? You should see the the film Waking life if you haven't. One of a kind film.
Foxy11, My mom, and my brother and my sitster in law all had kids after 40. My nephew's are intelligent well rounded kids 6 & 7 years old now... hope your "one day" comes.

Coz, you scare me a little bit for some reason. :)

Most everyone posting on this thread are Senior Members. So I have to redeem myself by letting everyone know I was practically hitting the streets with the good news of p.m. dawn from the start. So there!

02-22-2005, 04:22 AM
sdldawn, We share very similar tastes in music... for whatever thats worth. Beck's latest stuff is pretty much unprecidented isn't it.. Bitrate variations in B-flat blew me away. It sounded like Nintendo on psychodelics but yet it has palpable soul.

Wait till ya hear the final album.. those are only remixes...

Im gonna ramble about beck for a moment

The new album is incredible.. its the brother to Odelay.. to me at least..

Odelay is a materpiece in my opinion.. I think its hard for the majority to understand.. because its sketchy, its loose and the hooks are present, but underneath a core of edgy loops that created a soundscape of trippy rhythems and leads you to the unknown.. like any great artist should..

Guero is simular, but more refined and mature.. The lyrics on the album are well thought out.. the hooks and beats are layered, and the overall feel of the album is fun. I havent heard the slow songs yet, but Im sure its a nice addition to this album.
Guero isnt a new territory for Beck, but it is for the listeners who arent familiar with his work. In fact, if u played Odelay, then followed Guero.. it would sound like a continuation...
Most of the songs are very hooky and rough sounding, which is very positive.. I love it, its raw funky and becks voice sounds timeless.
Beck does most of the instruments, and the hooks and beats he samples are just fan fucking tastic.
Earthquake Weather for example is a brilliant song.. The beat is so heavily layered, and let me say that his beats that are sampled on this album arent just your average beat.. their good fucking beats.. its an obvious thing to recognize when listening to it..

My point? Beck is the man.. an leader

Beck is the man..

02-22-2005, 04:43 AM
I have to agree... (seems where online at the same time, rare here) Anyway, Odelay creates a full 3-D world of swagger and grace. It was "Nicotine and Gravy" that slam dunked his genius for me. The way he could move from a compliant groove to a strong tention, back again and then to a seemingly impossible transition into a Presbyterian Hymn, and it all feels as natural as can be. "Keep your lamp light trimmed and burning."
Were getting off topic though. Can't wait for the full release.

02-22-2005, 11:23 AM

Im Chief Grassy Knoll, formerly known as Chief KwiktoKillaKitty...

Im black, and I hate me some whiteys.....bring your cracka asses around me and i shoot you right in the buttocks...ok......im not racist...hold it.....i do like to club baby seals in the springtime....it makes me more self actualized.....ok...im the last hold out on my reservation...want some? come get some.....This war aint over you limey brits.....

contrary to hieros views, i dont like to have intercourse with animals, (that is unless you consider his mother one)...

im here cuz im dying to get an autograph of Zanphyr and his pan flute...and Im really hoping that he does a collaboration with Doug e Fresh and Whodini....talk about a rockin concert.....

Also...I was told Keanu was going to show up, somebody go get him please.....

And I really wanted to know how to get Intimate Relations Music...I dont have it and I must attain it...

I believe in God, and I believe he has a sense of humor...Cuz Im willing to bet that he starts Armegedon before Illinois gets to the national title game....*raises clinched fist in air*

oh...and i really have some BAAAD Farts right now....."oofff"....

02-22-2005, 11:25 AM
oh yea...and i like porn

Cozmo D
02-22-2005, 01:34 PM
sdldawn, We share very similar tastes in music... for whatever thats worth.

Cozmo D
02-22-2005, 01:35 PM
Coz, you scare me a little bit for some reason. :)

Cozmo D
02-22-2005, 01:39 PM
Were getting off topic though.
Don't mean a damm round these here parts.;)

Cozmo D
02-22-2005, 01:41 PM
oh...and i really have some BAAAD Farts right now....."oofff"....
And what else is new...

02-22-2005, 03:16 PM
did someone say something about off-topic?

Yeah, "waking life" is a very good movie.

eternals layre
02-22-2005, 04:21 PM
Brian Haynes
Catholic after 11 years of searching.
getting ready to hit 30
Live in east TN, kingsport (if you know nascar bristol. down the road)
im something mom is Cherokee, dad is white. I can own free land, don't need it, don't want it.
went to School on a music scholarship playing percusion drank my way through the first sem and left.
I have 2 sisters that are twins
I am married wth one amazing 7 month son
job network/system admin for isp/clec
love discovery channel and anything historical relating to religion.
i pray alot.
never really had a bad childhood just your average kid. Got ran over by a drunk driver at age 10 had my leg redone was told not to play football again but i played for another 6 years (paying for it now)
I am abit demented I love horror and anything that has to do with deamons.
I drive a red hearse its my 4th hearse.
I fliped over the Jesus Wept album came at the perfect time in my life.
lst book i read Malachi Martin: Keys of this Blood
current book Malachi Martin: Windswept House
fav movie Rudy It makes every man cry.
fav mood cd disintigration the cure.
retro things im into at the moment living color. soup dragons. jesus jones.

02-23-2005, 05:19 AM
jesus jones man i loved them back in the day

02-23-2005, 09:42 AM
Im black, and I hate me some whiteys.....

Before anyone gets any funny ideas, Chief is the whitest black dude you will ever see.

He's so white that we consider him a redneck. Beer, busted up car jackedup on bricks in the front yard and all.

(oh yeah, that and the fact he's really white, but hey, no one is perfect [remember I'm white too :) ] )

eternals layre
02-23-2005, 04:59 PM
they have some great new stuff

02-23-2005, 05:32 PM
they have some great new stuff

yeah actually i looked em up about 3 months ago and realised theyve still been releasing albums..i wanted to check out their latest..

02-25-2005, 06:33 AM
yeah actually i looked em up about 3 months ago and realised theyve still been releasing albums..i wanted to check out their latest..

I loved Jesus Jones back in the day too :) Glad to know they are still hangin in there, I'll have to check them out.

02-25-2005, 02:07 PM

I am Imani,I am a black woman and proud...No I am an African woman and Proud.

I am 24years old with a bachelors in anthropology about to go for my Masters. I currently reside in a shelter cuz I don't know how to save money nor have a found a job that I can hold onto,and I am a serious dreamer.

I am in love with a man who is not about to be tied down, He is the first black man I have ever been with and he inspired a love in me for the country of Mali which has a desert,my ideal climate. So now I am a Harlem girl who is now and forever an unofficial citizen of Timbuktu.

I can't make up my mind if I want to be Muslim or practice African traditonal Religion or both so I just practice a little of the two.

I like music. Mali: wassoulou,Tuareg,Ali Farka Toure. Mauritanian,Moroccan,esp Gnawa. Indian classical,world fusion,rock,Rnb,pop,jazz and blues. Oumou Sangare,Sade,Tori Amos,Live,Fional Apple,Josephine Baker,Tartit,Tracey Chapman,Cassandra Wilson,Billie Holiday, Sophie B Hawkins,Beth Hart,John Lee Hooker,Habib Koite,Hassan Hakmoun,PM Dawn. Just to name a few.(See I don't hate all white people)

I like reading. African literature,Greek Tragedy,Fairytales, poetry,philosophy,anthropology. Rumi,Descartes,Marx,Marquis de Sade, Camara Laye,Flora Nwapa,Buchi Emecheta,Chiekh Anta Diop,etc.

I like dance. African dance frees my soul and forces me to take pride in my plus sized body.

I like singing,though not that good but I can hold my notes better than ever.I esp love singing in languages I don't speak.

I want to learn Bambara,perfect my French and Spanish and learn Yoruba esp how to make those explosive "b"'s and "p"'s.

My one true art is writing poetry which is part confession.part catharsis.I won a high school award for two of my poems while everyone else won for only 1.

I want to do a genealogy of my family because all I know is that I am African American and that my mother was from North Carolina. I don;t know who my real father was nor my complete roots as everyone keeps telling me that I must be mixed since I am "light-skinned" with a kinda straight nose and high cheekbones. My mother was lighter than me with a different hair texture too.I would also like to know where in Africa did my ancestors first come from.I read that NC had many of the slaves from Angola.But I am hoping for Mali or Guinea because I want to be Bambara.:-)Well wherever they came from I will appreciate and respect that.

Okay so that is all for now about me.

02-27-2005, 02:14 PM
My name is Alix.

I am female. Alix is a girl's name and not short for anything.

I am one of Psychoman's younger sisters.

I am 23.

I am in my fourth year of university, hoping that they will let me graduate in the spring.

I am trying to get a Joint-Honours degree in History and German.
Like Psychoman, I had a pretty good childhood, marred only slightly by my own weird psychosis...until I was 11, and then things started to suck a little more than usual.

Also, just like Psychoman, I tend to lurk more than post.

I live in Ontario, Canada.

I lived in Germany for a year when I was 21. It was possibly the best year of my life.

I met my best friend in Germany, a French-Canadian from the east coast...and have been trying ever since to convince myself that I am not in love with him. He is living in Germany still with the love of his life...a girl who continually mistreats him and has so far threatened to leave him 5 times...and I hate her, for obvious reasons.

My love life is non-existant. According to my friends and some drunken strangers, I am too "intimidating."

I am a member of my own religion which is yet to be defined, but has something to do with quantum physics.

I've applied to do my masters in history next year, mainly because I have no idea what to do with my life. From kindergarten through to highschool my only ambition in life was to go to university, and I've done that.

I have never had a "real" job in my life. My student loans are amazingly large. One of these days I'm really going to have to face facts and start earning money.

I can speak German, and I am currently trying to learn Irish (just for fun). I foolishly took a french course this year, only to rediscover why I dropped it in highschool. Je ne parle pas francais.

All in all, I think I live a pretty sweet life.

01-18-2006, 12:43 PM
Oh yeah, I Dig Elmo

Yeah, I get Elmo now. I love him. I'm gonna find me one and sleep with it every night. That's my goal today. To find an Elmo. I'm getting out the yellow pages now.

01-18-2006, 08:31 PM
I'm Terrick
I'm 19
Nobody really likes me
This is the last forum I still visit regularly
It took me 18 years to get a girlfriend, whom I can only afford to visit once a year (thank god for wendy's cups)
I work for $5.15 an hour at the IU Bookstore at Indiana University
I spend most of my time in my bedroom because all of my old friends made new dorm friends this year
I'm drug, smoke, and alcohol free, but sometimes I'm pretty sure I have an ebay addiction.
I don't like school. Not even college.
I'm currently trying to experiment with my head and teach myself how to control my dreams
It's Michelle's fault that I'm on this forum. Otherwise I'd be on OKP and wouldn't even listen to pm dawn.
Ben Folds is my hero
I suck at everything

01-18-2006, 10:32 PM
I am Can,
Short for Candice
I am 23
I wait tables at ruby tuesdays
a Sophmore in college
My major was BIS, now it is CIS
I love going to school now, cause i actually pay attention.
i strive to maintain at least a 3.5 gpa
I am sainthax's better half
the middle of three children, second oldest of 4 step siblings
My father is Deaf, and i have spoken sign language since before i could talk
I live to laugh, love to live
Music is the passion that drives me, home, car, work, sleep, eat
all involve music, and have a soundtrack.
I sing (badly) in my car
i play the clarinet, flute, guitar (badly) and a little piano, and a little trumpet.
i dream of one day bieng able to play the violin
i can moonwalk...
My fav shows are CSI, unwrapped, family guy, and the simpsons
I am afraid of horses and clowns, and i laugh at clowns on horses.
i collect old stamps, and coins from around the world.
I live with my parents.

Mistress M
01-18-2006, 11:34 PM
Damn. I'm glad this thread was resurrected.

My real name is Mariah. I was named after the same song as Mariah Carey (They call the wind Mariah from Paint your wagon), and I hate her because I felt more unique before she ruined my name.

I am 27.

I study colonial american history. I love what I do.

I'm the oldest of 2 kids (1 younger brother)

My parents came from abusive homes and recreated it. My mom used me as as a parental substitute, and I haven't had a relationship with my dad for nearly a decade. But I've had enough therapy now where I might change that soon.

I was molested when I was 6 by a teacher.

I am afraid of insects.

I have two cats who I love more than anything in the world.

I am very spiritual, and practice something akin to Santaria, with my own theological twists.

I am an artist. My avatar is one of my paintings.

I have no friends from HS. I felt like they always saw me as who I was and not who I am.

I have one best friend that I talk to probably 5 nights a week on the phone.

I've had 23 different jobs ranging from construction to retail to nude modeling for art classes to working for the relay service for the deaf to doing makeup on movie sets and a bunch more I'm not even going to bother mentioning.

I've moved 27 times in my life, so I've never really had a home.

I've almost given up on love. I've discovered dating in NYC is really hard, and it seems like all the men I meet define "girlfriend" as someone they ignore for weeks at a time. I'm at the point where I really want to settle down, but the men I meet make me feel like that's an impossible dream. So I'm very lonely, even though I'm often surrounded by people.

I've done a lot of hard work over the last few years in changing myself, and I'm really proud of the work I've done. At the same time, I'm sometimes frustrated that improving my self-esteem and getting over my issues has in some ways made life harder instead of easier.

Overall, I wouldn't change my life for anything.

01-19-2006, 10:06 AM
On New Years morning of 2005, I woke up realizing that I was going to have to do something if I was done starting each day crying.

Later that month, I broke up with my lover of ten years.

That Feburary, I was given a raise.

That April, I moved into my own place.

Early that summer, I ended up dating a gentleman brute who I remain quite fond of and who takes up about half of my weekends right now.

My mother had a stroke later that summer. I spend almost half my weeknights doing homecare at her place.That's really about it for now.

01-19-2006, 10:07 PM
My name is Wendy

I am going to be 33 for two more weeks

I have been drinking since the age of 4 (yes, 4)

I love dancing and going to concerts and clubs

Soca and reggae are my favorite types of music to dance to

I've been to at least 150 concerts, the first ever being Neil Diamond, the lastest being Damian Marley and Pitbull.

I have an older sister who moved out of my mom's house at the age of 9 to live with my dad. She is now 35 and still doesn't talk to my mom.

I have 3 older Jewish stepbrothers and a beautiful 'jappy' stepmother.

My mom is a recluse with 0 friends.

My dad is a self-made millionaire who, immediately after retiring, had a bad accident and is now in a wheelchair.

I have a son who is absolutely gorgeous; at least, that's what every god damn person screams at me.

My son's mix is: Jamaican, Puerto Rican, Cuban, Dominican, Sioux Indian, Norwegian, German, and Irish. He has no race but he does have a Jewfro.

People often think my son is my brother.

I've been trying to find a doctor to tie my tubes since I was 20. I've finally found one! Now I just need to grow some balls and just do it.

I've tried to commit suicide at least 4 times.

By the age of 15, I ended up in a mental institution for about 4 months.

I've been arrested and jailed a few times.

I once sent my bikini pic to a friend who was in jail so that he could pass it around in return for snacks and favors.

I punched that friend in the eye and made it black when he finally got out of prison ( 11 years later). Payback for being stupid enough to get caught committing a fucked up crime.

My bf is 12 years younger than me.

I sing all the time. It seems to relax others. My voice can be absolutely beautiful but some days, it's just horrible.

I haven't been single since I was 16.

Coz making me a mod scares the hell out of me.

01-21-2006, 12:44 AM
I'm Moe
I'm 15 i live in minnesota i'm a sophmore in high school
I'm of persian decent
Acording to tests i've taken i'm "very superior" but my gpa is 0.7 so yes the school system is currupt.
I've come to terms that everything is questionable.
I belive that subliminal messaging is destroying our youth, and trying to lower population. (Crazy? exactly.)
I often try to figure out who i am,it is possible that who i think i am is just all the mumbling that i do to myself constantly, but i hope to one day conciusly figure out my uncuncius self..Or somehow feel myself all at once. (hah)
I'm known to be pretty funny i guess but in a smart way.
My dad had a stroke when i was about 10 he has not been able to speak or work since then.
This was hard to deal with and i became a trouble maker and this was around 9/11 in 6th grade a few kids giving a hard time to me because i happen to have middle eastern features made me tweak and i was sent to a school filled with rednecks and drug adicts etc. I knew i didnt fit i felt like i was the only normal person there. To this day it makes me sick how the adults treated kids there...Swearing to me in a non related to school manner when they knew i was a child. That was when i decided for sure that adults arent that different then teens.
I look at how many people are on this earth and i feel that if even i'm rich whats the point of being just another human. Madision square garden video footage gets to be deep, i see so many people walking to work..true in between then have family,freind fun sex kids etc...but it is not getting what can easily be gotten out of life...but then again i don't know how to get the most out of life just know i should do it.
They say youth is wasted on the young..I guess i'm wasting it while i'm aware of it.
I only see myself in music i hope to make my mother and family proud because i've been known as the failure in the family despite the fact that i see things about people that gets them freaked out.Nowadays that is all i think about and it is very frustrating because i feel like i make 0 progression. I guess i have the natural ability to read people .. it is hard to explain.. the english vobabulary is limited big time...intentionailly? hmmm maybe.

I like being interveiwed so ask if you are so interested heh.

Now you know as much about this animal as i do :-)

01-21-2006, 01:16 AM
My name is Damien, but I prefer to be called DJ.
I am 33 years old (for another month, anyway)
Was an art major in college
No longer consider myself an artist
I'm a follower of Jesus, whom I believe to be the Son of God, but I avoid referring to myself as "Christian", because a lot of very hateful people carry that name, and rather than associate myself with them, I just let them have the name.
I try to read some of the Bible every day.
I'm either the saddest happy guy I know, or the happiest sad guy I know.
I laugh out loud almost every day. Almost as often, I just want everything and everyone to go away.
Never married, no kids
I am black, but besides my family, I grew up among mostly whites. Both worlds can claim pieces of me, but I don't feel that I really fit in with either. I feel alienated every day, no matter where I am.
I love women, but I don't think that women in general really want much to do with me. I've never had much of a love life.
I wish I didn't care that women generally don't want much to do with me
I am an only child.
My parents divorced when I was three years old.

I love my mother.
I love my father, but I don't get along with him.
I don't get along with people who don't know how to laugh.
My grandfather was my primary male role model; not my father.
I consider myself as having four parents; my two stepparents earned the status of full-fledged parents.
I think too much.
I have a habit of considering possible consequences before I do things. This means that I have a very high degree of impulse control, but it also means that I generally lack spontaneity.
I like to write.
I'm reasonably smart, but my brain is slow, so I come off as much dumber in a realtime conversation than I do in writing.
I was a phone representative in the late 90s, and as a result, I still dislike phones.
I like solitude.
The worst feeling I know is when I've let someone down who was depending on me-- myself included.

I'm deeply curious and deeply skeptical
I'm a smartass.
I hate lies. I get angry at myself when I lie, even if the intent of the lie was to protect someone's feelings.
When I have the choice, I choose circumvention over confrontation.
I know a lot of nice things about myself, but I don't say a lot of nice things about myself.
I love to listen to other people's ideas, in the hopes that I will hear something that I've never thought of.
I am not a leader, nor am I a follower.

I don't trust a lot of people. I don't believe that anyone is particularly out to get me; I just think that most people are careless and stupid. If I am harmed by accident, I'm no less in pain than if I am harmed on purpose
People often assume from first impression that I am aloof or inaccessible. They are very surprised to find otherwise if they take the time to talk to me.
I feel things very deeply, but I keep a poker face most of the time, so it doesn't show.
I have intentionally omitted several pertinent pieces of information from this list.

01-21-2006, 07:34 AM
nice bio dj wheel

01-21-2006, 10:05 AM
I just had a breakthrough about Moe.

Nice to meet you, Wheeljak.

Cozmo D
01-21-2006, 01:35 PM
You know what? I really really like you people. :)

01-21-2006, 05:32 PM
You know what? I really really like you people. :)
"You people"? You racist!:haha:

01-21-2006, 07:35 PM
Now you know as much about this animal as i do :-)

now ask about the horsedog animal. i dare you.

01-23-2006, 05:25 AM
damn wheeljak. You is I and I is you. You wanna know a funny thing too, I 'didn't like' you. Don't take this the wrong way, for many reasons. First of all, I do not know you one bit. So, any semblance of an opinion that I had from you was taken from tidbits of your life that you conveyed over a computer screen that rarely lets 'the good bits' of personality(for me at least), or anything for that matter, sneek through. We are very similar, I am pretty sure we would be good friends if we knew each other in real life, but the computer can alter perceptions(at least now I know that we are very similar though).

My philosophy, about the people in the world that you do not like, is to just sit with them and ask them questions, when you learn about their life you immediately bond with them. Their experiences that you can relate with and imagine helps you create empathy and connectivity with them(dalai lama principles), and as he would say, that is the key.

Man, these threads are invaluable for creating empathy(and 'love', etc.) amoungst this sites viewers.

Cheers to new understanding and furthur comeraderie(sp?)!

01-23-2006, 11:38 AM
oh..i dont like any of you bitches....just the way i am..im not a pussy like justafan here...i can keep my hatred real..:)

01-23-2006, 11:47 AM
oh..i dont like any of you bitches....just the way i am..im not a pussy like justafan here...i can keep my hatred real..:)
Chief ain't lyin'-- every time I look around, he's sneaking up behind me, trying to lynch me by surprise.

01-23-2006, 02:29 PM
cmon now...be nice wheel....i was just offering you a nice necklace....

Mistress M
01-24-2006, 04:41 PM
cmon now...be nice wheel....i was just offering you a nice necklace....

Cause diamonds are a girl's best friend?

01-24-2006, 05:24 PM

01-24-2006, 11:48 PM
Cause diamonds are a girl's best friend?
Chief is an environmentalist, 'cuz his "necklaces" are made of hemp.

01-26-2006, 11:41 AM
Chief Chief Your Necklace Is On Fire!!

01-26-2006, 12:12 PM
nah.. it's just smokin...