Ok,
It's been a minnit comin, but I've realized that I am outa place here. My wife has clowned me about it for the longest, but it's just recently that I've come to the conclusion that she's right.
Unlike almost all of ya'll, I am not a huge fan of PM Dawn. I am a HUGE fan of Be and Jarret, and in large parts thanks to ya'll, also a friend of theirs again.
I have never been the "fan" type however, as I hate idolization of people.
Hell, I'm not even a fan of Newcleus, I'm sure if any of ya'll own any of my shit you have probably listened to it more than I have.
I came here...well to pmdawn.net...as a lurker looking for closure I guess. It was through that venue that I found continuance instead of closure, for which I will be eternally grateful.
However, what happened is I discovered some very special people, and it drew me out unto the open.
I feel that I have developed good friendships here, hopefully long lasting ones. Some of you have become very special to me.
But, I find that I no longer feel relevant here...in fact, I feel completely out of place lately. Let's face it, the only regular here even remotely close to my age is 6 years younger, and lately he has even hardly been here.
Frankly, the only person who I hang with on a regular who is close to my age is my wife, and even that is starting to get to me (please...some testosterone...PLEASE!).
I also feel a growing resentment towards me here...I have actually felt it for some time...but it has always been more than balanced out by the obvious warmth I have felt from most of you. At this point now though, a point that may be extremely crucial in my life, I just don't feel it is something that I need.
At any rate, I will finish what I started with the compilation album, though at this rate I'm not sure that the level of participation justifies it.
I'll be here for a minnit to get that done...
Coz